I´m here, on a white lining´s chair, alone and so sad. Alone and sad
because of me, because I lost you... I felt that my ARMY OF ME was enough to bring you back, but I was wrong. I
thought: LET THERE BE LOVE, but I
lost the only chance that I had to make you happy. My only hope was that you
will say to me: I TURN TO YOU,
fucking boring... I know, you are SO
EMOTIONAL, but with you, the reason always speaks louder. She avoids
suffering...
I wish your SMILE was mine
again, because it is so beautiful and strong. When you smile, I could see your
soul´s glow reflecting hope and the good future. However, I did ON OUR WAY with you from straying, I
acknowledge that I was unable to hold your affection. I have sinned, but would
all I want was to have you with me. NOBODY
WANTS TO BE LONELY.
I tried a CEASE FIRE, I tried
have your hug again, I tried touch your hand and feeling your real presence.
But I did not get anything... My big frustration was: can not make you happy,
as you deserve. I understand your reaction with me. It´s OBVIOUS that you want me away from you. I just need that you say it
looking to my eyes. When I see the really truth, I, ultimately, let you go of
my heart and my mind...
I know that there isn´t more REFLECTION's
places about me in your feelings. I´m RUNNING
OUT OF TIME, but I know that the only result of all this, will be the
fatigue of a guy who cannot stop thinking in you… I´ve the clear idea that, to
you, all this speech is full of EMPTY
WORDS. But you have no idea how each word is pronounced inside me. The
mouth speaks what the heart feels.
I´m sorry to be like this, I´m sorry to be like I´m being, I´m sorry to
try do anything right, that is give wings to a lost passion. Take it easy,
honey... I know, it´s IMPOSSIBLE. Today,
I am a lotus flower torn, full of blemishes and repentance. AT LAST, I deserve it. This is the
price of my wishing well. Be happy, my best crazy in love. God bless you!
By Fábio do Bú.